Valentine's Day

I posted this on my status today, and I stand by it...

I think we should all be a little bit in love with ourselves...

Said yours truly.

So love all of your lovely selves this Valentine's Day! smile emoticon

*Inspired by Beth Chestnut's status.

To live.

I've noticed through social media that there have been quite a few announcements of death. These are people that I may not have been particularly close with, but knew. I feel like, although I'm not really afraid of the idea of death because of my religious beliefs, it doesn't change the feelings of sadness that I have within me. I feel like death from age is probably the only time where I think, "They lived such a fulfilling life." But when people's lives are cut short, I just feel sad. I feel like they still had more to live for.

There have been multiple times where I have experienced near-death. Every time, I realize that I might be just a little bit afraid to die. Not because I fear what will happen next, but because I feel like I'd have regrets. Regrets of having not been able to do various things. "Dang. I never got to be a wife or a mom to anyone. I wasn't able to have a classroom of my own to teach in, with my own students. I wasn't able to travel and experience other cultures. I wasn't able to sing on a stage again. etc."

Yes, I do have plans for all of these things. I plan to fulfill these desires. I feel like these goals that I have set for myself have given me my own reason to live. I'm living for myself. But if I get a terminal illness, or into an accident, I'd have regrets. I'd want to live to fulfill these goals. I may not have known these people - they may have felt that they've accomplished all that they needed to - but for me personally... I have things to do that I'm working towards. I don't want to die. Not yet.

*I did take a video for the day, but I want to post something that fit the mood of the post, I guess?

A roommate

My roommate, Melissa, is seriously... So great. She is an awesome human being and has helped me with so much. I just wanted to put out there how grateful I am to have gotten to know her. :)

Chatting with Ricks.

I know... I've mossed the past couple of days. My stress levels have been increasing recently so I havent been prioritizing my videos very much - especially if they're just going to be the same ol' videos.

Today, I visited with one of my professors from last semester. He was my professor for Children's Literature which was a great class, and he is a great teacher! We got to talk about a lot of stuff, and about life. He also really got my pumped for the future ahead of me! We talked about taking away the misconception that we are limited, or restricted.

He also recommended a book to me:
"When You Reach Me" by Rebecca Stead.
I took the book right then and finished it like, half an hour ago. Seriously, such a great read! I don't even know how to explain the story well with out giving something away. It was a little slow at first, I thought. I just kept reading though (and the chapters are so short). In the end.... Wow. Everything ended up being so important.

Not as happy as this blog should be

I think I'm getting sick from sleep deprivation and unhealthy eating habits. I cant wait for spring where I'll be exercising a lot more. Winters can be so dang gloomy.

The self.

Hmmmm.

Beyond two souls

My sister and I just watched the gameplay/walkthrough/cutscenes for the video game, Beyond Two Souls, all day today. Sorrym for the lazy posts recently. I'll try to be more detailed soon!